Pain or Shine: A Poem.

Gut wrenching.

This pain is so thick and so hard that it seems neverending.

But it will.

It will end.

And in the end the rain will come to a screeching

halt.

You’ll know.

Life isn’t as hard as it seems to be. The truth is fuzzing

around the edges, but its there.

You can see.

You’re worth so much more than this mind-altering

feeling.

Breathe.

It’s all going to be okay.

Now your smile is so beautiful and it is shining

bright.

Even brighter.

Brighter than the most spectacular stars twinkling

at night.

You did it.

You’ve overcome that feeling, that gut wrenching

terrible

terrible

worst pain you’ve ever felt, feeling.

And you’re okay.

You’ll always be okay.

A Day In The Life: Summer 2017

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Now let me tell you, my Summer has been extremely, extremely long and boring. However, I’ve been doing pretty well focusing on my health and making sure I complete my to-do list for starting pharmacy school. So here’s a little insight into what my Summer life consists of.

Wake Up. I have been waking up between 8 AM and 10 AM every day this Summer, and let me tell you, it has been the best decision. I’m able to get so much done just waking up before lunch.

Work Out. I haven’t been doing a super strenuous workout, but I have been doing a 30-day Ab and Squat challenge, and riding my bike around my neighborhood for cardio.

Breakfast. I’ve been going back and forth between a bunch of different breakfasts. Lately though, I’ve been eating oatmeal pancakes and a fruit smoothie with ItWorks Greens blended in (these are my GO-TO for a healthy smoothie).

Plan The Day. I had so much that I was supposed to get done before Pharmacy School, so I’ve been planning my days to make sure I get everything done. (PS: I have! Except for the summer work I haven’t been given yet).

Lunch. So, my lunch hasn’t really been the most healthy, but it’s to die for. I’ve been toasting some bread and smoothing on some peanut butter and some marshmallow fluff. I pair this with some water and some fruit of some sort.

Whatever I Have Planned For The Day. Most days, this consists of dogsitting/babysitting and watching Netflix for forever, but on certain days I’ve been going to the doctor to get my necessary vaccinations for Grad School and doing other things for school. Also, I sometimes go hang out by my pool.

Dinner. Now, my dinners vary so much, but most of the time it’s some form of chicken b/c chicken is the G.O.A.T.

Family. After dinner, I’ve been watching tv or movies with my parents because these are the things I’m going to miss when I move out next Summer.

That’s about all I’ve been up to, and I can’t wait for school to start so I can have even more structure to my day.

Stay Golden,

Emily

Perfect Little Afternoon Snacks

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Hey y’all! Here’s my list of must-have healthy afternoon snacks, especially during my busy college week.

  1. Sliced Apples Dipped in Melted Peanut Butter. – This is one of my absolute favorites. I’m not a big fan of apples, but when you melt half a cup of butter in the microwave for 1 minute, it’s the perfect dipping sauce. It’s a perfect change to a classic snack.
  2. Peanut Butter or Nutella Crackers. – For me, I love some peanut butter (if you couldn’t already tell. However, making your own cracker sandwiches means you can substitute the peanut butter for whatever creamy delight you want, and nutella is a fantastic option.
  3. Ham and Cheese Roll-Ups. – If you’re looking for something a little less salty or sweet, these are perfect. Just pick up a slice of ham and a slice of your favorite cheese and roll the cheese inside of the ham and there you have it folks, super simple.
  4. Plain, Sea Salt Popcorn. – Now this is something that you have to buy at the store (unless you know how to make it.. and if you do holla’ at ya girl and let me know). Such an amazing and delicious snack that basically has no calories.
  5. Fruit or Veggies. – It’s literally so easy to eat healthy snacks, you just have to have them available. Especially for this one right here. All you have to do is grab a handful of broccoli or baby carrots and some ranch or a handful of grapes or a couple Mandarin oranges, wash them, and enjoy.

That’s about all of the snacks that I eat, but there are so many other healthy alternatives to fattening snack foods.

Stay Golden,

Emily

My Miracle Single Serving Smoothies

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Smoothies are the perfect way to take your breakfast on-the-go or just to have in addition to your breakfast for a quick boost of energy to conquer your day. This is just the recipe to how I make my morning smoothies. Enjoy!

First, freeze a tray of plain yogurt-filled ice cubes.

Then, make your fruit freezer bags (these are bags filled with 1 cup of your favorite fruits).

Add 2 of the frozen yogurt cubes in with each of the fruit freezer bags and blend in a single serving blender with the liquid of choice. I prefer milk or apple juice.

Easy. Simple. Perfect.

Stay Golden,

Emily

Embarking on the Journey of Pharmacy School

It’s crazy sitting here thinking that at 20 years old I will be entering the realm of graduate school. It’s crazy to think that as everyone my age is just now going into Junior Year and into their major-related classes I’m starting a whole new chapter of my life. Sometimes I feel so mature, and then again, I’m barely mature enough to be on my own. I worry about how I’m going to do it. I worry about spreading myself too thin and being far too stressed and exhausted all the time. I keep reminding myself that it is completely natural to be scared to start a new journey, but I should also be excited. And I am! I’m excited to be a graduate student. I’m excited to be learning all of the things that I’ve wanted to know my whole life. I’m excited to make friendships and partnerships that will benefit me professionally and beyond. Most of all, however, I’m excited to start my journey and ready to see wherever it will take me.

There’s no specific way to feel about this transition. I’m happy, sad, anxious, excited, and every other emotion that is normal to feel in a major life transition.

So here’s to my journey, to our journey,

May we work as hard as we need to and live as much as we can.

Stay golden,

Emily

 

To the Woman Who Feels That She is Overlooked

You feel like everything that you do is never noticed, not that being noticed is the reasoning behind your work or attitude, but it’d be nice to hear or feel that you’re appreciated. You feel like the things you say aren’t heard, or the jokes you tell put a damper on the mood in the atmosphere. You feel like there’s something and someone that is always going to best you. Every time. The clothes you wear are never pretty enough, your makeup always seems to have flaws, you can’t get the breakouts to end and you feel like the world gets so much bigger than you with every passing day. Your mind Is constantly consumed with thoughts of why aren’t you ever good enough, or why can’t you ever say the right things? How can you make everyone see how funny you are? Or how good of a friend you could be? You’re not alone. This feeling is hard to deal with. It’s hard to feel special or important when it seems that your voice is always heard as a whisper. These are the things that the world tells you that you are and sometimes it starts to feel like the worlds voice is the only one that seems to make sense. You start to believe these things and it starts to hurt.

Don’t. Please, do not let this world, don’t let the enemy, steal what’s rightfully yours.

Joy is yours. Confidence is yours. Happiness is yours. Beauty is yours. Strength, dignity, courage, and a peace of mind is all yours! And it’s time to believe and receive that. Christ died so that we didn’t have to carry these burdens of the world anymore. You have the power through Jesus to stand up and say, “no one else’s opinions or thoughts about me will ever define who I am!  My personality is blessedly mine!” And I’m here to tell you, you do so much more than you think you do. You’re beauty and smile has a bigger impact on someone’s day then you believe yourself to have. Your sweet spirit is much more contagious then you could ever know. “She is more precious than rubies; And nothing you can wish for compares with her [in value].” (PROVERBS‬ ‭3:15‬.) You were designed for a perfect purpose. And that is yours.

No one else’s. Perfectly, and beautifully, and only, yours.

Sincerely,

A Woman No Longer Moved By the World

To the Best Friends I Never Expected to Find

Wow. It’s crazy how things turn out. I guess it’s true that everything happens for a reason whether we know what that reason is or not. If I hadn’t broken up with my ex, I would have never felt so out of place that I accepted an offer to play Intramural Basketball. I mean let’s be real, me playing basketball? Who would have thought that would happen?

That’s how I met you guys though, or at least that’s how I started becoming a part of the group. As we started hanging out more and more, I knew that this friendship was going to be a great thing for me, so thank you.

Thank you for the lunch/dinner dates. Thank you for fueling my Insomnia addiction with late night cookie runs. Thank you for always supporting me even though I don’t always think before doing something. Thank you for the random car rides and jam sessions to get me out of a bad mood. Thank you for staying with me when I didn’t want to be alone.

Just thank you guys for everything. You really don’t know how much you guys mean to me. It’s insane how we could have gotten close over one semester. It’s crazy to think of how I ever went through college without you guys. I guess something good always has the possibility of coming from something bad, and some friendships pop up from the most unexpected experiences.

I love you guys!

Stay Golden,

Emily

Kill Em with Kindness

Hey y’all, happy Sunday. I’m writing this to just get my thoughts out and hopefully, people will relate!

I have gotten really tired of people who say they care but really don’t. I have realized actions speak louder than words ever will. I also can’t stand when people are truly mean to others for no reason. I think that in this world today there is already a lot of hate and that we all should try to spread positivity…bring each other up…instead of down. However, apparently, some people disagree and don’t see through the same lens I do. But really, what’s the point of being mean to people that have done nothing but care for you? In our modern world, there is war, there is poverty, there is kidnapping, rape, child abuse, and there is most definitely bullying. While we can’t change some of the other bad things that happen, we can definitely (try to) stop the bullying and the mean things we say to each other. It all starts with us.

I have realized I am different from a lot of people, in a good way that is. I have been through hell and back myself, and I have managed to never be mean to anyone who doesn’t deserve it. Even if people are mean to me, I try to kill them with kindness (it doesn’t always happen, but I am working on it). I know it’s hard to understand when people are assholes and you truly know you don’t deserve it, but use them as motivation to better yourself. Don’t be that person. Spread kindness wherever you go, always wear a smile and don’t ever stoop down to their level. Making this world a better place starts with you, starts with me, starts with all of us. While some people are just not nice people and won’t participate, we can do the right thing. Besides, for them, Karma’s a bitch. Don’t waste your time on people who tear you down and kill you inside. Life is about the people who build you up, love you no matter what, and are always there for you…even if it’s 3 AM and tears are streaming down your face and you just need someone. Life is about the people that would drive ten hours to see you for two. It’s about surrounding yourself with all the right people and all the positive people and killing the bad/mean people with kindness and praying that some day they will see the light. I know often in my life people have pretended to care about me and situations have arisen that proved they didn’t. While that hurts like hell and feels like a stab in the back (or ten), we have to realize some people are temporary. Some people are here to teach us a lesson about ourselves and a thing or two about life, and love, and pain…and that’s it. While it sucks, trust the process, trust God, and trust yourself that you are strong with or without those people you thought were your best friends that you would have forever. People change, and so does life, and as unfortunate as it is, you have to get hurt to discover who you really are and where you really belong/who you belong with. It is very likely that a part of you will always miss that certain someone, whether it be a friend or a past lover, but know that they are not going where you are on your journey. You’re better off without them, and you are amazing and will go far. Be thankful for the lessons they taught you and wish them the best.

Okay, I think that’s all I have to say about that topic. Hope y’all related to this (and that it actually made sense and wasn’t just random ranting)
xoxo!!

Stay Golden,

Ali